Starting over is one of the most hardest things I've ever had to do. Here it is 2014 ,me at 37th lost in the World I'm not exactly sure where I thought I would be at this point in time but God knows it wasn't unemployed fat and unhappy. Where do I start trying to find my happiness is it in the gym sweating it out on the treadmill or is it laying in my bed eating a bag of potato chips? The thing is I know what I need to do to make myself happy and healthy but its hard to do one minute I'm motivated and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel the next minute I'm down and want to be buried inside of that tunnel. Its day 20 of the new year I've already been on 5 diets since the new year started made over a hundred promises to myself. Its hard when you want Oreo to be your lover yes I said Oreo he never calls me fat he never makes me feel bad about myself . But I know he cannot be my lover I need to wake up and smell the coffee and get back to being the Hustler that I know that I am . I can do it I just have to put my mind to it and make myself motivated and hold myself accountable for the things that I'm doing . But it's hard not to go back into those fat girl ways . Today is a new day and I'm done looking backwards it's time for me to look forward .